So I think I'm one step closer to finally writing.
I never wanted to write anything for fear of well, not knowing life enough. I know young people have written so great stuff, thinking Harper Lee here more than anything, but I mean, mostly young people have no real insight into life and anything they try to get across in type will be mostly self-indulgent and basically, terrible.
No offense to any young people out there, I mean, I'm one too...although I'm getting closer to crossing that divide.
Pain helps a lot. I had some pain as a young man in high school and shortly afterwards, but nothing I felt I understood. At the the time, I'm sure I operated in a sense of complete clarity really. Looking back, I know I was full of shit, and understood nothing. I know now that I understand nothing to this day. I know already I will understand nothing tomorrow. Isn't it great? Fucking liberating really, and just what I need to write.
I can now put thought to paper, or wordprocessor at least, and not worry about the consequences. Of course in ten years after completing said work I'll hate it, it's in my nature. As long as I can live with it and recognize it was relevant at the time, it will all work out.
I know now what it'll be about, nothing revolutionary, just another story. But it'll be MY story. I am destined to spill my guts as I am right now, and I know that the credo "write what you know" is extremely apt in my case. I could fake ideas and character insights and dialogue, but that'll make me hate it wholly - at least if it's close to my heart, I'll be able to live with it.
And to anyone I've ever said the phrase "I'm totally mentioning this when I write the story of our lives", well, here goes nothing. Oh yeah, that's right, he did mean it when he said that.
I should clarify this however. It won't be done anytime soon. I need time to pass between what is happening to me now and the final project. It's not that what I'm dealing with is too hard to relive in this project, but that I realize that writing situations close to what is really happening might not be everyone's cup of tea, and some time to heal is in order.
Plus who knows, maybe I'll have a happy ending after all. Which of course means I can't do it, no pain = no gain. :P
Lates.
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It doesn't matter how old you are, the first stuff you write is usually terrible. Even if your prose style is awesome, chances are the actual content is full of cliches. If it's not, there's usually something else wrong with it. I wrote some pretty terrible stuff for quite some time before I realized it was awful.
It'll take some working through, but you're incredibly articulate when you want to be so if you feel like it, go for it. The more you write the better you'll get.
Get going, and good luck!
p.s. If you ever need an editor, I got "skillz"!
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