Uh Huh

I'm writing here so I can get it off my chest and go the hell to sleep.

Work was as fun as usual....felt ill all night but tried to not let it show....something I ate I think.

Came home and realized something that did not make me feel any better....worse in fact would be the proper way to put it.

I'm an idiot sometimes, well not really, I know the truth but I'll let others lead me down a path that is not what I know, just because the grass is greener there.

I need to trust my gut more and just realize when I'm being misled.

I think I'll be living at work more so the next little while. Makes the days pass quicker. I also think I'll stop believing the feelings of others....honestly, it's done nothing for me but give me a false sense of security.

I've stated that before, but every time I give in and believe what I'm told....but feelings are fleeting I'm finding and I'm just not equipped to handle this up and down.

I'm still typing so I can find a song to upload.

Oh found one. Click on the link title above for George Harrison - All Things Must Pass. It seems the most fitting for what I'm feeling at the moment.

Let it go. Well, try to anyway. Hey bright side - I'll be dead in a few decades. LOL Come on laugh it's funny....if you can't laugh in the face of death then what's the point I say.

Later...time to try to pass out.