All Things Must Pass

Up and Down so much, I've become neutral. It's a coping mechanism really. Things are still 50& fate and 50% free will as always, but lately it hasn't felt as such. It's only a feeling though, and it'll pass as Harrison might say...if he weren't dead and all that....he still says it on my itunes though, although I suspect maybe he has larger things in mind.

I will admit I've lost my touch, but I feel as if it's coming back. I let it go a little over a year ago, because I felt I was comfortable enough to do so.....but now I've come to realize anything can still happen, and as much as you may hope your life will take a shape in the early years, not everyone is meant to be such a person. I know now I'm not, and it scares me to think things may always shift so dramatically for me for the next...well, I was going to put in some type of timeframe here, but that's pointless. I will enjoy it however, that line about it being the journey and not the destination has always stuck with me ever since I first heard it as a kid, and now I think I know why.

So with that in mind, I'm going to take back everything I let go of, and learn to let myself get my ass kicked, and fall stupidly in love with people as I honestly like to do and it'll all come out in the wash. And furthermore I know it's what I'm fated to do, so for once fate and free will can work together.

See you in the 4th dimension whenever it's meant to be.