Me Again

Yay!!!! I found out I get to redo my Management Science course again next semester.....I have such a hard-on for that course I'm doing it twice.....hahaha.....I'm pissed, so I'm being venomous.....which I actually enjoy. I know, what a sadistic fuck. More venom!!!!

Enough of that crap, that's life kids, can't be an expert at everything....unfortunately, as someone who rarely ever fails, I feel annoyed, but I'll live. At least doing it again means I'll kick the friggin crap outta that course the second time around. Eye of the tiger indeed.

So, is it just me, or does getting older mean you just care less and less about Christmas? I know I couldn't be excited about it if I tried. I'm thinking if I had kids or some such thing it might bring it back. Right now, mid-twenty something bachelor guy doesn't even notice it really....except that I've been shopping that is, that reminds me hahaha.

So I set a new year's resolution for myself, which I have never done in my life, since I'm the type who just decides to do things whenever (frankly, setting a start date seems like the resolution is doomed to fail to me).....so what is it already rambling man? OK, I realized tonight I need to smile more often, and MEAN it too. It's not like I don't or anything, but I often catch myself doing it and stop myself short. I have a complex built up around it, which I have discussed with one other person in total.....but based on things I've said, it pretty obvious I hate the way I smile. Seriously, this is MY complex.....other people have their own things, this is mine. But I'm just bored to tears with even thinking about it anymore, so enough with that eh? Plus, the girls are never too into the dude who looks like he goes home and thinks depressing things and draws depressing, possibly violent pictures.....hahaha just being self-deprecating, don't mind me.

And no, still no idea what I'll do for NYE.....I'm waiting to be absolutely convinced that I should do one thing over the others....others, that's right, I have an embarrassment of riches when it comes to NYE this year. About time I say.....usually every year I end up getting drunk at home, or at a small party which I'm not into to, and is somehow full of strange people I have little in common with, and this usually occurs through some kink in a plan-like the weather....the weather has interfered in my past two NYE's in some way or another.

I am going to go with whatever plan will be the most FUN, at least one of you possible/potential/maybe readers knows what I mean by that....it's been a while. I'm looking to start the new year with a huge goddamn bang-something to set the tone for the next 365 days of 2006. It's at the point where I really think I should expect nothing less....that's right, I AM becoming more selfish, and good for me I say.

Bonne Nuit.