Patience Is A Virtue, Or So I've Been Told

Feeling odd tonight, actually subdued is more like it. Hope I'm not headed back to the way I was before. I guess when it gets to be too much I head back to what I'm used to-but man, I do not want to go back to that. Boring. It's a hell of a good way to watch your life slip through your fingers-too dramatic you say? Well, let's just say it's an apt description. Being borderline, feeling nothing-it's a great way to cope, but a shitty way to live if you ask me. And since you didn't-ha, I told you.

I'm headed to Moncton tomorrow afternoon-4 hours on the bus....well, I'll get some reading/studying in I suppose. My biggest hope though is that I bust out of this funk I'm in once I get there. Blah! It's the waiting I think. I feel like I'm just killing time towards something else now. Which is great, since it means obviously that something is coming down the pipe so to speak, but still, makes it hard to get motivated sometimes.

THIS above is why it's shit to live with no emotion-you friggin wake up one day and go "fuck!" HAHAHA. Don't worry kids, I'm fine, just bored, and I just really enjoy casual swearing.

I suppose I'll see everyone in a few days, and to anyone in Moncton who may read this thing-see you soon. Bonne nuit.


Edit: 11:34pm, I get my wish-now I'm stressing and feeling like crap....yipee.....