Staring At My Reflection

No, that doesn't mean I'm vain as hell today-just too reflective for my own good. Something to do with the weather I'm sure. Nick and Sophie have been done all weekend, which got me thinking on friday about this "possibility" that arose sometime this summer-doesn't help that Sophie brought it up again this weekend. Sorry if it's cryptic, but this as far into this guy that you'll get, although it is still miles deeper than you'd get in person.

So anyway, back to my first thought. Jesus, it's like being in high school again. This may let the cat out of the bag, but what is it with me and french girls? Always seem to get mixed up with them. That hasn't happened yet in this particular case however. I'm currently playing it "cool"-although I think I just come off as disinterested when I do that. The list of potential girlfriends in my life is longer than the list of actual girls dated. Need to be more assertive buddy. I will say, in my defence in this case, that playing it cool might be the best bet, since I'm (a) not sure if she's interested at all, and/or (b), involved in some way with a friend of mine. Just like high school.

The distance thing may be an issue as well, although I think I'd probably be able to deal. I will not, however, do as Nick and Sophie want me to do, which is move to Moncton. It's cute that they want me to, but I really need to get school over with, plus there's the band thing going on now, but more on that in a moment. I almost ended up in Moncton earlier this summer without their persuasion. If I had actually finished my second degree, I probably would have had a chance at an awesome job in Moncton-a civil service gig that not only sounded like it would be up my alley, but was really well-paying also. I will not be moving up for other reasons though, meraning no relocating for some "chance at romance"(in quotes because I think that sounded stupid). I've been there and done that, and God knows that probably messed me the hell up. Probably? No probably about it. It was character building though, but definitely painful, which set in motion this long running policy of little-to-no emotional investment. I'm bored with that now mostly, as evidenced by my spree of Bowie/Elton John/Queen and anything else that could described as "overly dramatic".

Now, to the KNA v. 2.1, although I guess it could be v.3.0. We start our new series of Sunday night jams at A52 tonight in a bid to kick-start what has been a forgotten entity all summer. In addition to a few new songs, Dan will now be playing some second guitar, while yours truly will be providing additional vocals in conjunction with bass duties. This is in addition to the near-completeness of the EP that was recorded last summer. Plans are now in the works for a release party at the Seahorse. Time to get to work.

So, it seems that things got busy/complicated pretty quickly. I've now got school, which is seeming somewhat foreign to me still since most of my classes are completely different than what I was used to with the last degree; there's the KNA; and then there's the "situation". I'm resourceful though-it'll totally work, calm and collected, gotta do what needs to be done. Sometimes being emotionally dead can work to your advantage, just do what needs to be done one thing at a time and don't stress. Fuck, this post makes me sound neurotic. From the sounds of this however, I'd say that I would have been better off setting up some sort of myjournal account.

Just clearing the crap out of my head so I can focus. Sorry to be weird in this one-and yes, it is weird, I usually post this type of crap at 4am.....I guess I got my wish, something is happening. I think my problem is that I don't know where to focus my energies-what should I wrap myself up in. I sound like Dan now.....need another vacation.

In lighter news, whoever tracked the dog shit through the building friday night, you suck-clean up after yourself. I don't know how you pretended it never happened, because the stink is still out there. They're just lucky I couldn't conclusively find out who had done it, because I was going to put it in a bag and light it on fire in front of your door. Merci pour ecouter, a bientot.

P.S.-My theme song this week has been Movin' On Up by Primal Scream-I've been actually singing it out loud without realizing it.